broken up inside

it hurtss me so much. have u ever felt like left out or maybe people kind of ignore u? something like that. im having this stupid thing kind of mix feelings. and its freaking torturing me. i dont know what im writing now. but i guees it does make me much much better. maybe this is the reason for many people to have a blog. actually, i've always wanted to have my own blog. for me to write all my feeling or should i say for me to pour my feelings to a place. but yeah,i suck in writing. buttt who gives a damn? haha. im tearing now but i know what kills me will make me stronger. so i need to be strong. and i know theres still people who love and care about me. i dont want to disappoint them. in my almost 20 years of life, i've learned super a lot.  been backstabbed couple of times, been failed thousand of times but i know everything happened for a reason, i know i should not be super emo or blame what has destined for me but seriously sometimes u could not help urself from feeling exasperated  disappointed and angry. i always live my life with a though that what goes around comes around. :)